Cat Again

Ruk jana nahin tu kabhi haar ke...

kaato pe chalke mileneg saaye bahar ke...

o rahi o rahi....... o rahi o rahi

Yet again he convinced me to take CAT with full conviction

I dont know but this CAT isnt just getting out of my life... or may be am just hanging on to the rope.

This is the second thing after AJ which is asking me to win over it, by hook or by crook...

I called him up to let him know that on Teachers Day he i been fondly remembered!

Sir said just give me 10 days for math and I know its IIM.

He almost declared that I am a CAT material .

He also informed that last year IIM Shillong based on Profile made a call at 85%le

Now seriously I aint that bad... I can somehow manage 85... if at all I work in the right direction with the right person.

I know English can never let me down. If I can end my rivalry with Math for ones and for all this year, probably things would be very different... Just the way they would have been if that day math attempts by me were more than just 2-3... I wouldnt have been living in the mesh of self-doubt and all these posts wouldnt have been just there. Most importantly I wouldnt have let myself down..

Ones you touch this word CAT, my brain thrashes me for all the things done not-done in past.

I know I had left no stone un-turned that year.
Even my God knows I worked hard, but then may be people around worked harder... I just worked hard enough to enter into some shitty bank.

Every year during this time since then, I browse through net to find the closing dates for CAT and end up buying a chance for myself.

I know that the time when I worked hard then also I couldnt bell the cat, forget this time when I am just so badly out of touch.

But then like every year, I call up "that" person and he instigates it all. He lits up the fire in me ... the guilt or the anger of I may say so of not clearing CAT.

He has asked for just 10 days for Math.

I am going to buy the rest for Eng and reasoning.

I still dont know how but I think if someone has so much confidence on me even after letting him down for so many times, he deserves something better from me this side.

Not for me but yes for you i will give it my better shot.