The 20s... someone...

The 20s... Someone...

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two,
but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.


You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were closest to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met.
You constantly come across friends throwing away shit on you because of certain things which you never intended to do
You realise that you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones :(
What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold,
mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you are.


You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought
you would be doing, or maybe you are looking That Thing and realizing
that you have to start at the bottom or may be you are just not upto it and that scares you.


Your opinions have gotten stronger. You are reluctant to change.
You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual
because suddenly you realize that you have certain demarcations in your life
and are constantly adding things to this of what is acceptable and what isn't.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.


You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to your past life,
but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward (irrespective of your will)


You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.
Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why
you're doing this because you know that you aren't that a bad person.
You want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack
and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now.


You go through the same emotions and questions over and over,
talk with your friends about the same topics because you dont seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself...
and while winning the race would be great, but right now you'd just dont want to be a contender!

And I dont want to be a contender!

I dont say that I want this phase to pass away soon...
But I want it to be a little easy on me...

This too shall pass

Thing called luv...:)

This is the yet another time I have tried this thing called love,
And this is the time its here to stay.

Our P's and M's are buried in the past.
Now will never end, as this time will last.

I've learned through all the fights and separations
Beyond all other dreams and predictions.
That happiness depends on being with you.
It took me some time to see that this was true

But now it is the rock on which I stand.
I know it, and the realisation brings me peace.
I need no space for wandering or release.

All my being I put into your hands.
Love me sweeta,.. for I'm completely yours.
The way is clear... I have no other doors.

i dont like....

Am self obsessed and now there is another blog on I me Myself...
Things I dont like abt myself (and am willing to change)

1)Am a big big Procrastinator ...i postpone things till my death

2)If I hate someone... his/Her even a small mention can put me off for one complete day .. this is bad... i give rights on myself to those whom i hate most

3)Am a hypocrite ... If i say sumthing not-so-good abt my family its ok.. but I cant stand anyone else playing arnd

4)I talk too much (har time...)

5)At times I find myself perturbed over unnecessary things and most impt n urgent things jus dont affect me

6)I spend like crazy ... and even if i say I spend wisely I end up saving nothing... mann hi nahin karta paise bachane ka

7)I am soooooo much afraid of maths... for reasons unknown

8)I future plan a lot... esp related to things which are of least importance; so in simple words.. I Day Dream a lot

9)I am highly unpunctual (I am alwys the last one to enter the office but punctual while leaving though :P)

10)I am not girly-wurly (At times its necessary to talk abt matching nail paints n toe rings)

bhaago mat...

Keep it simple.... slow down baby slow down !