harbingers !

Met a Self Help Group today... Group of 11 female entrepreneurs.. Simple funda superb earning

Met a team of CA & B.Tech... Upcoming entrepreneurs... again simple funda, superb team

Is this a sign ?

Is this the time to start afresh ?

Has the time to quit come ?

In conversation with Myself

Its been months since I spoke to my bro... :(

Why these things called misunderstanding/expectations/grudges have so much

uncalled-for-presence in my life...

Do I myself allow them to barge in or they jus perpetually been dropped down from sky? However the point is, bro if ever u get your hand on this blog do read the next few words as the purest form of truth ...

"I miss you.. more than anything in this world... I see you in my childhood.. I see u in my future.. but I cant just figure you out in my present... I am a jerk.. I just cant say it but deep down I really want you to know that i need you the most in this world... I am still your younger sis who needs your staunch support and a protective hand to sail me through these times."

Come Soon

Anyway, in a conversation over lunch, my close friend endowed me with some observations.

The first one blatantly said that I have too many "grudges" in my life... May be yes... probably because I think I expect too much out of my life.. but then wats wrong in it? whatever it is, its my life then why not expect ? Something which is probably wrong is that am not working to come upto those expectations

At that time, since the food was super yummy and chilly I couldnt really come up with a suitable answer so I randomly said I have grudges because I planned my life in a certain fashion and trust me God made sure that, that particular fashion is just not followed.

May be I have too many plans / options for my life...

She cut me short and said... u think ur at an age when u can sit with a cup of coffee and just browse through the umpteen options you have, just like a 10th grade student who is confused between taking up math or biology... She might be right... I haven't really moved on in life... I still think too much and want too much.. I cant decide upon a particular thing... be it clothes or work(no food included in this... in that area am so perfect that i can instantly come up with wat-stomach-wants !!!)

I still live in the present and working to make the day well spent, and give a damn to future... May be my approach is just not suiting the present circumstances.... or may be this is indeed the right approach wherein I do things as the come and stop worrying abt a well planned future, because then the entire universe conspires to do just the opposite :)

I need time.. a lot of it... not to think but to act on a thing which I think the most... The thing which I actually want to do not arbitrarily but for years to come.....

Milestone

15/05/2011.... I hereby complete my 2 year probation period at SBI

I am glad that I survived through this :)