Wont say am angry, probably am tooo disappointed ... i fell like giving up... but then how can i... wat am i without them... but then i dont want be like this... I saw the worst version of myself today, in front of my parents. why do i have to fall down to a level from where i just cant rise... I hate myself for behaving like this... but then I am not sorry for what i did today... and the worst part is I have noone to share this with... because that will be unjust...
I feel helpless... I cant avoid this... neither can i live with this.
Running away from this will make me an escapist, which i dont want to be tagged as.
But am not able to find a solution to this. Its been 2 decades, am fighting... and its still on.
