Introspection time ... !!

I miss those days when it was so easy for me to pen down my thoughts... It never needed an extra effort... tempo or watever...
Things change bigtime ones your employed... Not only Your vision mission values n blah blah... but mainly your Attitude..
But one thing that changes too much(and not for so gud) or infact I shud say is lost is... Vitality.. Spark..!!

And it seems that like any other employed person it is happening to me too.
I suddenly feel that the urge to do new things, the will to make things better around me is on its verge of extinction.
I stll rejoice doing things which make me happy... But as I said earlier I no more muster the tempo, the kick-strt...

Things like first n foremost Blogging, Reading newspaper (am happy I still manage reading some novels), taking a stroll all by myself, making cartoons(I was ones too good with it... My Secret Box still has those sketches i made during school time), learning new words, Reading my MBA text books (I sincerely use to atleast read them. if not mugging them), Keeping my room funky n full of life....

Everything seems so lost

Considering the level of stability in my life no one can predict the turmoil going inside... not even my own self.. Only when I sit alone in the DTC bus on my way to office or back home and look outside the window I realise that I am losing myself.. The real me... the actual me ...


Everything is perfect... I now have a decent job, Modest Salary, Non-Bickering PG wali aunty, Oldie-but-safe Bosses, My sense organs working at optimum level, My stomach getting pecks of good food every weekend, My marriage has been delayed for unknown years, My family jubilant with the arrival of the cutest child in the world and aove all, I finally have "us"

But that Void persists and Its kind of choking me from inside.., May be I am expecting too much outta my life... but then why not? its above all my life... I wont get even a second of it back, ot a second chance to set things right.


I certainly do not wish that my complacency overshadows those small lil things which actually constitutes a large part of my life... infact a large part of my happy life...


I wont make any resolution to set things right from 12 midnite... But yes every day I will take requiste baby-steps towards getting those perfect participles back in my abstract life so that i can add an adjective before every noun n an adverb before every verb so as to get the most meaningful composition..


PS: Writing everything in head do wonders to my cognitive process of self actualization :)